Saturday, July 21, 2012

It's become a yearning.

Hi everyone

I really want to have a second child. As usual I have a heap of friends who are pregnant at the moment and although I'm completely over the moon for them I starting to get a gnawing feeling deep inside.
I used to inwardly giggle when some people would talk like wanting another baby was a physical urge, or that they felt like someone was missing from their family. I thought it was a touch melodramatic if they already had one or two healthy little ones.

I have an amazing friend who after years of infertility and double digit miscarriages now has 3 beautiful little poppets. She understood when I became a bit of a hermit after finding out about the whole pcos issue. She didn't push, but just reminded me that she was always there to talk if I wanted to. No pressure or judgement.
(By the way, this will be an interesting way to check if she reads my blog)

I know I'm only 26, I know my biological clock isn't in free-fall yet it feels like I'm running out of time.

I'm worried that with having a second child comes all the new things to feel guilty about. Showing alleged favoritism, sibling rivalry, being a stay at home mum for my first and childcare and the working mum routine with the second to allow us to get ahead financially instead of wallowing in debt.
And yet even thinking of these things means I'm getting way ahead of myself. It's not even known IF I can fall pregnant to even have another baby.

For now I just have to focus on what I can do I suppose. Exercise and eat healthily.

All for all those people who explained what it felt like and I didn't understand. I do now and I'm so sorry.

Much love



  1. You know I love you but the first step to anything is talk hubby then go to the GP or gyno and get everything checked out. Good luck with the future.

  2. Hey rach :)
    Hubby already knows (he reads my blog. Lol) and we have talked at length about it.
    As for the GP/gyno there are lots of alternatives I have been offered to help fall pregnant and although wanting another bub is a definate the timing isn't great. I'm logical about it but it doesn't make me feel any better. Hopefully next time in the ACT I have a baby belly for you to do a shoot of :)
    Much love and kisses to you and your beautiful little miss


  3. I love how you put this. I thought the same thing. Took a few years but now I understand what people were saying. Thanks for putting my thoughts into words, I hear them clearer that way.

    1. I'm so glad that you like it. Posts like this I proof read the couple of lines I'm writing an that's it so I'm always worried they will end up as a ramble but it means I get exactly what I'm thinking out as a typographical splat. :)

      Have you filled your missing people spaces as yet?

      Much love

  4. Hey
    I do read your posts!
    Cheers for thinking of me, I must admit (with my head hung) that I only read your second posting today.....busted!
    Much kisses to you my love xx


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